whats going on
my dad told me i've been smiling more ever since i got back. i can't really say much to explain to myself. i do agree that i feel better for some reason; maybe it's all the rest i've gotten these past three weeks, maybe it's because i dont have school or work to worry about, maybe its been the fact that ive been able to see my friends regularly. notably though, i'm not feeling any post trip blues. activities were done, socialization was acheived, good experiences were had, cute memories were made, and that's it... eventually by the last two or three days i felt ready to go back to the real world. similar to how aespa left kwangya and returned the real world, i left portugal and returned here to toronto (objectively, this is extremely cringe of me to say, but include something aespa related while i had you all here). aside from the cold weather taking me out and the horrible cough i caught, estoy chillando
in terms of stuff to blog about, this feels bad to say, but i don't have much deep to really speak about. i am used now to using blogging as a crutch when things feel a bit difficult, but now that things are pretty okay, i don't experience those loops of rumination that let me form some of the posts i used to. of course, this is all from my point of view. however, i still enjoy being able to blabber about my day and random things and not stick to some standard template of things i go on about.
one thing i did miss on the trip was being able to sit in a cafe, have a nice coffee and tip tap on my laptop. writing posts on my samsung flip really sucked. typing in general on that thing sucks, its too narrow for my fat thumbs, and in most scenarios, i give up on having any correct spelling. its worse when i type with one hand. if i really focus, i can write legibly, but id rather just write on my laptop. not to mention the feelings of superiority i experience when i enter the cafe and the people know that i want an iced americano without me having to ask.
anyways, ttyl.