equal aspect photos
i've never been one for taking photos. i cant attribute it to a specific reason, it's just awkward and uncomfortable most times. if a strand of hair is laying the wrong way, or my shirt is too wrinkled, or if i dont raise my eye brows, it ruins the whole moment and i fall into a spiral. in most cases, if someone takes a photo of me, i don't want to see it. i want zero to do with it. it all just messes with the image i have of myself in my head. do i call it vanity? is that the right word?
of course, there are times when i have cute outfit on, my face is freshly washed and shaved, my hair is doing its thing, and i can tolerate myself enough to snap selfie. but those moments have been rare for the past few months. i realize it now as i'm going through pictures to attach to this post. all i see are cute pics of my feet in docs, pictures of my cats, pictures of wildlife i've seen on my walks, and that's about it. why did i get such a good phone if ninety-nine percent of its use is towards whatsapp and webtoon reading.
as of recently, my go to wear has been various colored jeans and a rotation of black, white, or mud toned shirts. i've been really enjoying a light colored jean (like a greyish/offwhite color) and black shirt. it's too hot to layer like i did a few months ago. i miss winter when my biggest decision was how baggy my jeans had to be in proportion to my coat. i cant even wear my favorite pair of jeans because there's a hole the size of mars in the crotch area and i'm too lazy to fix it. need to return to looking like biggie smalls each day. i've been shopping less, which is a good sign. my last major wardrobe purchase was pants a few days ago, and that it. i think im chilling and have clothes that are durable enough to last me a good year or two before ill need to reconsider what i enjoy wearing or not.
touching grass each day does wonders too. you wouldn't believe it but i take walks straight when i wake up. of course i feel like shit leaving the apartment that early in the morning (seven to eight am), but i think its turning into on of those placebo effects where i've convinced myself im doing favors. my daily step count for the year has averaged to fourteen thousand steps a day, which is nice. something in my mmorpg addicted head tells me that i need to get this number higher. i pop by second cup most days and grab a coffee while im at it, maybe talk a bit to the older ladies that congregate there. its nice, it really is. anyways, thats enough talking about random things. have a nice day all.